Nothing left

I remember the day that I ran away
From not only you, but from everyone
And it helped me understand
Why I don't move like you
Or like them

With every step my demons were there
They rattled me awake every night
They held my hand when I was afraid


I remeber that day like it was yesterday

My bones rattled
My breath stopped
My feet sunk into the wet earth.


I began to understand.


I took nothing with me.
Not even you.
And now I stand alone with only my demons

Every now and then I see you
Just living your life like the rest of them
But I am invisible
You will never see me


It empties my mind of everything else I need to do
My soul divides and scrambles to pick up the pieces
My mouth turns towards the sun like a flower
And my mind is only afraid that my stomach churns


Happiness

But I'm invisible
Because I ran away
And I can't go back

I will never hold anyone's hand other than my demons
And I guess that's just life


What a blind thing to say