Never again

Here's an old one I never posted!





Do you remember that heart breaking poem about how the music died?

Well the music has died. 

It's died in me and I think it's died in you. 

It's not my fault and it's definitely not yours, 

But we both seem to want the blame. 



I've been searching for that music

And the last time I even remember it

Was when it was curled up in your arms. 

Or when all three of us awed at a starry night 

Under a bare, black sky. 

And when we drove for miles, searching for fun. 



It was even there through our tears. 

And it was there when we were done. 



It was there. 



I believe that the only reason we didn't see it

Was because we were in high school. 

With our uncertainty raging

As well as our hormones. 


We couldn't find the solutions for our problems, 

Even with our high IQs and our flunk out grades. 


And even though we were almost sure that we were adults,

We stil sat on our parents laps. 

We just stopped suckling. 




But to this day I still hold my mothers hand,

But now I know that I can let go. 


Back then we believed that our parents held our music. 

And that made you think they could control you, 

And I thought so too. 

But it hurt me and it hurt you. 


So I let that music run away. 

I sat there and I watched it as our hands came untied. 

But I realize now that it ran away 

Hand in hand 

With the one who got away. 




Because of my high school delinquencies

And my skewed perspectives,

I will never see that music again. 



My soul it took with it,

And you took my heart. 


So now all I am is a walking and talking carcass. 



The only feeling I feel is pain,

And it no longer comes from my heart. 

Oh no. 


It comes from my brain. 



So please. 

I know that you aren't coming back

Because I threw you away. 

But please don't take my music. 



If you want to run,

Let it stay. 


I need it.



With out it I'm not a person. 

I'm just a human. 



And it hurts to say

But I love my music. 





Just not as much as I love 

The one that got away. 

Star-crossed Lovers

I almost settled.

I almost gave away my left ring finger to someone who didn't want it.


I almost lived alone.

I almost decided I belonged to no one, but I belonged to everyone at the same time.


I almost became content with nothing.

I almost let the utter darkness consume me.


I almost let my soul be sold.

I almost relied on the touch of different men every night please me.



I almost was destroyed from the inside out.



And the worst part is I didn't care.



I was through with being alone, but I didn't want to settle down.

I was sick of having too many friends but not enough love.

I was tired of having everything, but feeling nothing.

I was done with fake lights at the end of the tunnel, so I stayed in the darkness.


But that's when I saw the sun.

You dug me out of that tunnel, and together, the moon and sun formed an eclipse.


So beautiful yet only a few can look in awe at with out misunderstanding



So yes we have been through a lot.

But at this point the only thing we can't overcome is giving up.


So even though we are two different people,

We will never be separate.


No matter how far apart.